As I sit down to write after revisiting my last blog post of 2019, I can't help but marvel at the whirlwind that has been my life since then. Life, they say, is a journey filled with unexpected twists and turns. Mine has been no exception.

The relationship I once held so dear has become a memory, COVID threw the world into chaos, and I found myself in Rochester, NY, then unexpectedly dwelling in an RV in Waco, Texas. Friendships that were once close have evolved, and I've moved back to Missouri. This lead to me becoming a campground host for the Missouri State Park system and residing in a camper.

Amidst these changes, life took an inevitable turn with the passing of my beloved grandma. However, in the midst of farewells and closures, new friendships and chosen family emerged, turning the pages of my story in unexpected ways. I hopped on a plane with no clear destination, embracing the uncertainty.

This journey led me to apply for directing Creative Arts Productions, Lion King Jr., this summer at the Missouri Theatre. During my travels, an opportunity to make a significant impact on St. Joseph's art scene has presented itself as a retirement has made way for new beginnings. I've thrown my hat into the ring for an Executive Director position with the Performing Arts Association in St. Joseph, MO. It's a call to go home, and I find myself at a crossroads, weighing options, and for the first time, relishing the power of choice.

Previously, my life felt like grasping at straws, but now, I'm navigating a sea of possibilities. I have the chance to volunteer with the Missouri State Parks system again, or work at The Bavarian Inn in Eureka Springs, soaking in the tourist season. It's not a desperate search anymore; it's a mindful selection, and it feels liberating.

I have submitted my resume to an agency in Kansas City, MO, opening doors for acting, voiceover, and modeling work. My new website showcases not only my diverse artistic endeavors but also my experience with yoga, a practice that has been my anchor during these transformative times.

Reflecting on the last four years, I've learned about coexisting with diverse personalities, discovering profound levels of patience and forgiveness. Time, I've realized, has its way of serving justice. My instinct to fight every battle has given way to prioritizing inner peace – a delicate balance I strive to maintain.

Before leaving Missouri, I glimpsed the possibility of finding peace at home. Connecting with like-minded community members and rekindling friendships gave me a taste of the fulfillment that comes from being truly at home. I cast my net wide, and now, it's time to embrace the abundance that awaits.

As I revisit this blog, I'm prepared to delve into the personal aspects of my life. It's a source of entertainment and reflection, a space to release emotions and share my truth. Naiveté has given way to a more grounded perspective. I'm no sage offering solutions; I'm navigating life one moment, one day, and one breath at a time – just like you.

While this blog will be deeply personal, I implore you not to use it as fodder for gossip. It's my story, and interpretations may vary. It's raw, unfiltered, and genuine. If you're along for the ride, fasten your seatbelt – this is "A Raw Blog." Thank you for being part of this journey.