Today, was the celebration of the 1st year of The Yoga Institute Powai Branch. The event was completely perfect as the guests enjoyed themselves, the participants were absolutely beautiful and I learned several new things about myself and the way I work with people. I always like to sit back and reflect after an event to review how the event went, to observe the emotions I felt during the process and to see how I could. I feel at these times this awkward silence when I receive compliments and that I constantly try to hide who I am.
On Saturday, I listened to a podcast by someone I used to look up to and felt sorry for them. I know his true story and me knowing this keeps him from being in my life. I have listened to many podcasts over the past several years. Most of the people on there are telling you how amazing their lives are and that you too could have their life. Fuck their double-sided bullshit-marketing-inspired-lifeless life. I wouldn’t want their life in a million fucking years. I often complain that I heard that I’m so talented but I can’t make a living or live a life off of my talents.
When I made an investment in myself to do some hard work, I learned a lot. This, paired with the practice of yoga, has me living the best version of myself that I can be every day. Is every day perfect? No. Is everyday perfect meaning the way that it should have been? Yes. Am I hear to tell you how you can have a life like mine? No, because sometimes I still can’t believe that THIS is my life. However, I do hope to inspire anyone I meet to be the best version of themselves that they can be every day.
During the rehearsals for the celebration, I felt less like hiding who I was. During the process, my classmates probably learned that I am completely annoyed with people that can’t be on time, that one plan is a great plan and that I love them regardless. Why hide the fact that it upsets me when people are late, but, equally, why let that ruin my experience of working with my friends and yoga family? This event will never happen again and, honestly, I will probably never get the opportunity to perform alongside them ever again.
It’s such a sad but exciting thought that in almost 6 months, I will be onto a new chapter in my life. The future is very uncertain, but, in this uncertainty, lives new adventure and a new beginning. This new beginning starts not from a bad experience but a very positive one. My strength and vision for what is to come is mine. It is my seed that I can’t wait to let grow to see what blossoms. Sometimes, reflection is just as beautiful as the experience itself.