With this being my last week in my yoga course, I am excited, scared and sad that it is coming to end. As I stated with my friend Miho, her departure starts the series of departures that leads me back to my journey of heading back to the US. My friends come back on Sunday and leave again on Wednesday and then I take my final exam for my 900 hour Yoga Instructor certification. This is exciting and terrifying at the same time.
After I complete my certification, I leave the day after to visit the US for two weeks and get to spend a week in Holland as a sort of farewell to this chapter of my life. I come back to India on November 1st. Shortly after that, my friend, Brean, comes for a month long visit of Vipassana courses, Reiki certifications and the Taj Mahal. Then, in December, I returned to the US ready to start my uncertain next chapter of life.
My life is completely at a crossroads. I want to ride the wave of being an instructor of yoga and also start my own teacher’s training program. I have projects already in the works and look forward to seeing where all of these paths lead. I have a long way to go but taking things day-by-day is the best approach for me right now. I have lessened my anxiety by this approach. It is so freeing to know that everything doesn’t have to be done all at once.
I got back to class today after missing three days last week and teaching on Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday. I am going to miss my students that I have been teaching for the past year and also the ones that have come in more recently. They will never know the true impact of how the shaped me as a human being and a yoga teacher. I am grateful to them like God sent them to me for bountiful lessons. My last day with them is October 10th and the days are flying by.
Being back at it, is taking a mindset of determination and strength because my attendance requirement is fulfilled and all the required signatures are all logged. It’s head to believe that I will have taken on this tremendous challenge in only March and learned so much. My life is and will always be changed. Now, I just need to find the motivation to get ready to go to class.